& loneliness aint no cure ♪

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I've been having too many mixed emotions lately.
i really just wanna climb onto my roof to just getaway sometimes
...seeing as im on the second story of the house & my rooms on top of the garage, i just need to cut through my window mesh and pretty much walk onto the garage roof... that's good enough.
don't care about the neighbours hah
(:

i had like a stack of things stored away in my head to write in today's blog so hopefully I'll remember everything :L

i keep thinking about it all. not the memories. just it. i wake up every morning with it in my head. I know that's normal (: I'm certainly not sad, don't get me wrong! im actually always feeling quite neutral or happy (: i know im strong... im just getting really tired of falling everytime i pick myself up again & I've been falling for 4 months & Im pretty sure its all ended now. i wont give up, because i know there's no reason to. No matter how tiring this is. Its fading away quicker than i expected it to (: its not disappearing, nothing ever just disappears. So people say you lose one, you gain one. I have a secret (:
& thankyou to the people who are there for me through thick&thin. youse know who you are (: i love you dearly. especially Jenny's face LOL

Hilarious moment for my group today. *Painting the school productions flats etc. during lunch*
my group was talking about Rugrats for some reason. Remember that TV show?! wasn't it just awesome haha. always loved dill and phill :L they crack me up! So Sandyna was telling us about how when she was small she watched the movie and cried when Chuckie was singing about how he wants a mum to do motherly things to him...
And someone was like "doesnt he have an asian mum?" Sandyna: Yeah Kimmy's mum adopts Chuckie later on
Jenny: Isn't Chuckies dad asian too?
*everyone goes silent. looks at jenny. cracks up and has a fit! :L
i was literally 'ROFL' ok.. maybe i wasn't rolling but i was sure on the ground laughing my head of. BAH!
We're all like what the heck Jenny just cos hes chincky :L and then ANNNNN.. oh my god.
Ann: He's asian because he wears glasses
everyone does the same thing they did to jenny
*litterally ROFL' again :L it made no sense what so ever! ...ahh such a dumb moment! i heart my girls dearly (:

i bet you're reading this and you're like "er...wtf" you had to be then! *pokes tongue out*

Afterschool i went town with annie fanny (: had to buy Mary totoro slippers shhh its a surprise! ^_____^
(Mary if you've somehow gotten curious about the link on my msn pm and clicked it and got to here. PRETEND TO BE SURPRISED FOR MY SAKE!) rofl

So in case you didn't know what Totoro is. Its got to be one of the cutest anime movie everrrrr!

My Neighbour Totoro (:

so yeah.. since i was in town i decided to look around one last time for my work experience before i give in and just go to a pharmacy or Harris scarf at Arndale LOL, i dont know where i want to do it anymore so i just went with simple retail. this will be the first time ^_____^ and im hoping this will build the courage for me so i can finally start working haha. (that is if mum convinces dad to let me work :L) I went to whistles in the Myer center but they didnt do work experiance anymore ): my Friend Vanary said she was doing her year 11 work experiance in Acoustic Stomache (level two, Myer centre) so i decided to have a go there, they accepted and now im officially doing work experiance in aaaaalllll the way in november at Acoustic Stromache! (: hooray!

I also bought myself a new sleep top from Cotton on Body because they were having a sale (: (have you noticed Cotton on & Cotton on body always have sales?!) its a cute little number ^____^ its long sleeved, cream and has french written on on it (i have no idea what it says!) but on the back up near the collar in small writing says "love-is-not-enough" so it must be about love or something ^_____^ its so cute i love it hehe (:

if anyone can read it id love to know what it says! ^_____^
and yes i tried to Google it like i do so with everything else. I don't think i spelt it right though? /shrugs
love it anyway (:

Urgh! i feel like i have so much essays/assignments/tests and shit to do! not to mention like everyone else has... EXAMS! :L isn't school just fun fun fun?! okay. i lied (: its just fun. (you gotta admit it! school deserves some credit haha) i just finished my english essay, science prac report, maths (still dont know what to do for my DI!) and wrote roughly two pages for sose last night. why did i mention sose? because i hate it :L pure hate (:

Just read Ann's newsest post on http://theesecretcode.blogspot.com/ and i decided to run downstairs to get some ice cream toooooooo ^_____^ haha

thanks for reading!
xx