Phoenix Wild Fox: decisions I dont want to face

Lately no matter what I seem to do, all I end up doing is thinking about is you. See my facebook status guys?

Yeah... that's not really working out. I want to take on a certain special friend's advice and just take things as they come. I'm strong (: no doubt, I've been able to achieve so much in such a short period of time, It's just I feel as though If I do this... I might let things slip between my fingers and I'll lose it. Aka him. I need a good grasp again, I just wish I didn't have to use all my strength because sometimes I feel as though I'm pulling all the weight & he wants me to let go. I love him, There no doubt about that. Sometimes theres a voice in my head which tells me how he'd be okay without me though. You can let go of someone and still love them. I know because i've done it before. Believe it or not but thats one of the biggest things I've learnt this year so far. I always keep that thought in my mind, it keeps me strong (: knowing what I did. And that I could probably do it again when the time comes around.

I love reminiscing (or trying to) on the early months of our relationship up untill about the end of last year.

A lot of things that has happend this year just causes me pain. It's these little things that make my mind go crazy and

in depth with thoughts about the future. And what is going on at the moment. We had sooooo much more back then...

yet our love still grows more & more each day. Maybe I shouldn't be speaking on behalf of him. I spose my love for

him just grows by day... Right now I'am thinking about my fifteenth Birthday (: That was last year in December, it was

also the best birthday I ever had. I'll never forget it (: He took me out in the afternoon to the bay and we ate, chilled,

did what you'd usually do at the beach ya know, spoke of whatever came to mind then at nightfall he took me back to

the city for carols by candlelight and that was really pretty (: I crashed at his place & I spose It wasn't much... but it

meant a lot to me. A birthday to never forget ♥

Yeah i'll stop rambling about him haha. My apologies! So how was my day? Pretty effing great mate :D I (funny enough) had roll n roll for the first time and that was ghkdrhgdeharghewj friggen great & I also picked up a fair few pieces of clothing (: