I wanna watch Harry Potter already! :D

You know I hate going to sleep at night knowing we're like this. Rips me apart, & its amazing there's even something left in the end... I just... didn't see it anymore. And no surprise I was right. How could you stop trying like that... I would never. Not until the time comes. How can you easily forget me like that. Show me I'm something in your life again. Promise me you will try like you were doing three weeks ago. We were going so good. I'm so cautious of everything you do. I can help it. I'm excited yet afraid. I can't wait for us to be happy again ^_____^ but I'm scared you'll do this to me again. Forget & get so caught up in the childish things you do. All the things you do... fucking hurts me so badly. I know you know that too. I love you. Why do I fucking stick around. So fucked off because we were going so good, like really really good. I remember it now. But you just had to go fuck things up. And then I'm the one that suffers while you sit back and think its all okay. Fuck sakes. Sure we sorted it out and have a plan now. But it still bloody annoys me. You stopped fighting for us because you were having too much fun without me. How the fuck would you think I'd feel? I want you to see things in my perspective. Please fight for us again, I know you said you will again, but baby how 'bout you just show me (: See how hard I fight, while you sit back and do whatever is most comfortable for you. You won't get of your ass until something tragic happends or I tell you to do something about us.

Yeah I was very harsh. You know most of this is all anger too. So fucked... I'm sorry kay? But you hurt me so deep this time again. You told me & even my friend that you wont let me go again, that you wouldn't let anything happen. But there you go fucking things up, Just cos you were having too much fun and thinking about yourself. So everyone's question is, do you give a damn about our relationship? I sit here behind my laptop with an answer that I'm too afraid to type down. You prove it to me that you do care about us. Especially me. I miss you.