It's night time I fear the most

I seemed to enjoy the first day of school as usual, Yeah, I know it's school & I'd usually 100% dread it. But I guess thats another weird fact about me, I enjoy every first day back. Everything feels kinda fresh & brand new in its own ways, even if it's only to a small extent. Ya gotta miss it a bit...
The lunch sun was my highlight of the day, oh & ofcourse we can't forget the certainly very green looking fake grass we now have in the main courtyard :D

I had good lessons today, even productive maybe?
Kylie: I feel like hooking up with someone! *looks around* ...but dw! with a guy ofcourse!
Tien: ...I wouldn't mind :$ :D
Mearlear: me either! :)

It's night time I fear the most , the time I want to pass by quicker than anything else.
It's when I sit here at the very end of the day that I start to get the feelings again, I even wait for them because I know I can't do anything to stop them. I start to feel a little vulnerable... scared, & very alone. Truth is I miss you more at night. I'd never go back, but I do miss you. It all seems so long ago really. My mind slows down & everything seems to weaken for a while. My memory becomes clearer than before, I remember it all, all the way to day 1. A replay in slow motion, I watch the smiles & laughter with an almost empty feeling now. It was good times one hundred and two. Thank you for this chapter in my book.
Don't worry, it's just the other side of reality saying hello and I spose thats when I'm waiting for the morning sun to shine the most.

I have Ouran High School Host Club, Fruits Basket & Bleach to keep me company for a while. Although I don't seem to have time :S which is usually impossible... I always have spare time! /sigh I think i'm really lagging haha. /shrugs I wish I could just run to Mary's house sometimes. Just so I could be somewhere a little different but still feel safe. Saw her during the last long holidays we had /sigh. Oh... I think I'm starting to miss something else too.

Hope everyone else had a good day (:
Goodnight & sweet dreams my beloved blog readers.
xx