The tears that run down my face now aren't from the pain or sadness. I can't even cry real tears over you anymore, obviously don't want to either, but a tear or two will trickle out every now & then and some have told me it's just how I deal with things. It's just I know that you're always in my head, just a small memory but you're always there, & as I said before. It kinda sucks. & you know what? I never find myself thinking about what we ever went through this year, I always find myself thinking of the memories of what we had last year, when we were still happy. Its sad to see such a genuinely amazing person that I loved grow, change & slowly drift away from me like this. But its kay yeah.So I come to school kinda ready to talk to my good friend about some things that have been on my mind and all yeah, like usual. I dissapointed myself because you didn't even seem to care today... I feel a little replaced by her sometimes too. I can't do anything, I mean these things happen. It's highschool rarara. But then I realised, I only have one true person who I lean on and do get the support. My energy to live on, my source for the truth & nothing but the truth. No sugaring up :) & If you've ever come to me sad or anything you'd know that I love teaching people that the truth is always the best, no matter how much it hurts, It will always be the best option. I beleive in that, becuse I learnt it myself. If you're strongly against my theory, come have a chat with me one day, should be interesting :) I'd like to know the opposite thoughts.
So as I was saying, I felt so down this morning & it wasn't till lunch did I feel inclusive in your day, /sigh. Moooving on!
Celine (Jenny's youngest baby sister)'s beanie is sooo friggen adorable! I personally like Annie's better (Jenny's other baby sister) It's hello kitty :D which owns all...I had a damn great rest of the day during lunch and after though :D:D:D (my friend once said have a short attention span because I get sad & happy again easily) gee I'm one messed up child haha >:)
At lunch so many funny things happend, I had a fun photo war with Sandyna but she defineatly won that /rolls eyes.
Us girls had way too many lesbianish conversations :| And one girl whose name I won't mention but you know who you are ;D You get way too god damn excited/serious about these wrong things babe! bahahaha. moooving on! I've now learnt that my group can discuss really lesbianish things 8D The topics that were discussed came along the lines of... cream&freakish dancing, the smoke machiene! Bubbles baths, rose petals candles & the whole deal. Fogged up showers, /sigh gosh I love you girls ;) I had double Science & that was interesting I spose, Biology is my area I think? 8) Mum picked me up from school & bought me KFC, yummers bahaha & Then I came home, ate, slept (I know thats bad but I don't get fat so ner! :P) woke up at 8 and did some homework like a good girl :D so my day was gkewighekjgheiurshyargn. Aka, damn boring but gooood :)
Mearlear Chan Chau is so natrually beautiful :) lol at my little speech/explanation of this earlier today in Science.
And I'm just a weird child :DI'll leave it at that :D
Goodnight & sweet dreams my beloved blog readers
xx
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