true feelings

Don't you hate it how we're natrually finding ourselves giving them one too many chances.

When we let things slide a little just for the sake of keeping "happy"

Sometimes; we even let go of some problems.

Or we just sit and cry until we're finally "fine" and can talk to them without yelling or fighting again.

I've found myself guilty of all four throughout my relationship of 15months.

Peter & I aren't much fighter\s. We hardly do! but I always feel like we should? /shrugs I'll be a girl and always tell him how I'm feeling rarara (:

But when it comes to him... He just keeps it all in! He says he's "afraid to yell at me because he doesn't like it" ... I'd honestly rather you tell me how you feel. /sigh so typical i know right?

But Peter has changed, And i'm proud of him *nods* & yeah he knows that (: ever since we have gotten back together he has expressed his feelings more. (sorry if i've crushed your ego or something sweets!) and I was fair proud of him last night when i confronted him with our problem. It took him some time... but he ended up opening his god damn mouth and explained himself. We yelled, I even swore. But in the end... It worked out. And im fair sure it was because he finally contributed to our fights :S He finally said things. He finally spoke for himself. God dammit I can't teach & learn so fast myself but I'm trying to help him too! So yeah, I'm fine for now (: Its always the case hey. But I'm more than fine with how the situation worked out last night. I only made one mistake which was when I said it was "okay" at one point about something he said. Obviously it's not okay but then I fall guilty under "When we let things slide a little just for the sake of keeping "happy"...

A special thankyou to Tuyen Le, it's hard to find honest good hearted people in this world these day who just genuinely care for others.

And while I'm at it - I send my love to the three people that I come to for a shoulder to cry on, advice & support.

Mary Lee, Sandyna Sem & Hien Lam ♥

I've missed writng like that in my diary. Hope its kay with youse that I do write as if this were my diary sometimes yeah (:

So on the bright side of things.

Goodmorning my beloved blog readers! This feels good... blogging in the early morning haha ^_____^ dont ask why im blogging this early; because I have no idea myself. Just seemed to wake up kay! mkay :D we cool *nods*

Whats happ'nen today! Hopefully I'll be able to go back to sleep after I post this up but meh /shrugs (: I'm going to watch Bruno today with a handful of CBC boys plus Hien & probably eat AB afterwards ^_____^ I'm scared Hien might yell at me today for a certain reason /giggle. I'm supposed to swap over my computer table with mums writting table today but meh, going out :D haha. Yeah I'm not getting that day bed anymore because mum thought about how Im going to (as daughting as it sounds to me already!) a year 11 and 12 in the next two years and I don't have a study table bahahahahahaha /sigh ): Smart point though, so i'll still keep the wood and wood shaded furniture in my room ~ That day bed was mighty fine though... so I'll just dream now (:

Well thats all for today (: not sure if i'll blog tonight?

Hope everyone has an awesome day

xx