Am I too late now?

I need to feel that way again. The way I felt that fine & sunny afternoon. I watched the sun set behind the beautiful tree's on my bus ride home & I simply just felt free like a bird without a care in the world having the most positive attitude ever & definitely still happily thinking about you. You still run through my mind every single day... & I'm not trying too hard to get you out either. I know I can't get you out :) Even though It's a little embarrassing, I'm certainly not ashamed of it. I cared about you a lot. An open discussion about "first love" came up today in Maths today & this is when I realised that having him go through my mind all the time is normal... some of the girls I spoke to can't get their first love out of their mind's either. It's not a constant "okay, I'm thinking about you" & ararara kinda matter. They are just simple "there" In your mind. Always. Okay so I'm not the best example because my situation is still kind of fresh. So obviously it's normal to be thinking about it & all, but I was still curious to know if I was possibly still holding on? which is way not on my list of things to do. So with my friends situations, they are two, three years down the track so I spose I collected my data from there 8D I learnt it's normal & Its kay :)
& ararara young love. You know how people always express how they dislike how people use the term "love" too often? when It's not even needed? sure I believe in that and all. But I also have another thing to think about. One that I also believe in. Sure some people may not think certain things are "love" but it might be to the person who is using the term. So right there, don't judge until you've been in their shoes. I'm sure that throughout life, people will go through many stages or "love" I spose I believe there's way more than just one dictionary meaning for it. & it is definitely normal for one to feel as though they are in love I mean... No one is actually here to actually teach us what "love" is, we all experience different kinds of love for ourselves. For example, right now, I do believe that I was in love with the boy. He was... as many times as you've heard it before. Everything. But I also know that I will experience different kinds of love, different stages & I'm obviously going to share it with different people. Or not. So in conclusion to my crappy attempt of an explanation. Don't get too angry at people for using the term love too often kay? come on.. give them a break. I'm sure you don't completely know what love really is yourself yeah?
Also, you know what's funny... how we all really want to find happiness in everything (even though we may not know it) that we are always trying to find "true love" asap? What's so wrong about falling in love many times before during your many years of life? Enjoying the youth & accepting that we have the rest of out lives to live. That's how majority of the worlds population did it. Right? You're always going to fall, pick yourself up & learn from each & every experience. In the end you know you'll go through so much relationships (or not so much) but we all do it. Stop thinking you want to find the one true love. right here & right now. Don't you want to experience life to the fullest? Look at me.. ranting on like this /shake I think I should stop before I get even more carried away (more than I already have :|)

I've always loved the idea of a bedroom that is all wooden white! It looks so home-ey, elegant, still child like to an extent yet very lady like ^_____^

A blob blob blob ;D

FRIDAY TOMORROW! woooop! so outta school right now =='

Goodnight & sweet dreams my beloved blog readers
xx