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My apologies for missing out on so many days of blogging & now I'm just posting like a maniac ahahaha.

I'm actually quite tired of everything! Sometimes I seem to know what to do... but I just don't want to do it! It's hard to know whats best for you... & sometimes when you figure it out. It could be too late or you find yourself going in the opposite direction for your own pleasure, even though you know you're going to get hurt. I don't know who to trust & who to listen to & I definately don't know what lies ahead in the future. I know no one does, but doesn't everyone have a goal or a place they know they need to be? I'm completely lost there & I spose I know thats normal for my age aswel. All I know is that I want to be happy. (like any other person living on this earth) As broad as that is, I spose that's a start. & In the end...

It's all a learning curve.

I'm not sure where my decision lays, whether its the right side or the wrong. But this is what I want to do. I'll go with the flow & have a paddle to steer myself. Fingers crossed it works out, & If it doesn't then once again, all a learning curve. It may not be anytime soon, but theres a chance & I spose I'm willing to take it. I'm in for a ride even though this probably isn't the right time to do so.

Can't I just crawl into a hole & stay there for a few days.

I want to rest. Rest from this world. Couldn't we just pause time for a second?

xx