You make me smile :)

Skipped school today simply because I kept waking up but then falling back to sleep again :) was about to go to school for lunch because the group planned to have a shared lunch today but I realised a little too late that we get out early today & there wouldn't be any point coming to school at all in the end D: ...sorry girls. But I did manage to get a good sleep & finish of my roll of film for photography :) I went to gloria's as planned & grabbed myself a yummy caramelatte & read a bit of Stargazer by Claudia Gray, I also saw Hien today! it was only for a couple of minutes but it was good to see him :) my golly feels like I haven't seen you for soo long haha :(

I'm weighing out my options at the moment... & I don't know what to do. If you know me quite well you'd know that I'm soo tired of the whole "trying as hard as you can" thing by now... but the thing about this situation is that I want to! I always want to try for everything, try as hard as I can for the things I really want. I just don't know if I can right now. Emotionally. I also don't know if it will be worth it in the end /sigh. So I either continue doing what I' am doing right now, try to convince myself it's not true & not complain. Or tell the truth.
This is so hard because I always tell people that the truth is the best no matter how much it hurts. It's always the best. How can I turn on my own words If I end up choosing the other option... I spose I know why. It's to make you happy. I spose i'll be doing it for you if I chose the other option. but then that clashes with a good friends advice. "Do it for yourself" why do my two good advices have to clash?
Okay so I don't even think that makes sense looool but ohwells. I don't really care :)

Missing you Mary :( 10 more days till I get to see my beautiful sister! I'm so excited ^_____^ It won't be a long stay but I get to see you & your mummy again!

Goodnight & sweet dreams my beloved blog readers
xx