because the moments we've shared mean something deeper & the memories of us are our secrets. So smile because no one will ever know...

I hate it how I'm tired & ready for bed then when I turn off all my lights & my laptop I lay there in bed thinking. Thinking about how far i've come so far and then I think about that one and only boy who has changed my life forever.

I admit defeat, you know I still love you & It doesn't matter how strong I am in front of you, and it doesn't matter what we say to each other anymore, we don't need labels, that's long gone and none of those words could never explain what we are anymore. When I start to think of how I feel about you, my head spins & I don't think I know enough words in the English dictionary to describe each feeling. Honestly everytime I think about you all I want to do is cry. Never, will all the tears really express how I feel though. I'm tired & I know you've heard me say this more than enough already.

I don't even know what to say anymore, there's nothing I can do...

I'm tired yet I can't sleep because your name constantly repeats itself in my head, I think the basics of things. Like what any other girl would think of when she thinks about the boy she loves. I wonder what you are doing right now, what you think about and when we will see each other again. I love you & you love me, but that isn't enough for us anymore. You knew I could have held you in my heart forever, but still even that wasn't enough for you. We've been here before & this is silly.

I want you to remember that you have nothing to prove to me, I know how you feel and there isn't much else you can do anymore because everything you've said, every action you have made to this day says it all. We've both made our decisions & I'm just asking you to move on, not only for yourself but for me too, this isn't fair and you know it. How can we really move on when we won't give each other the chance to.

My last wish is for you to set me free, set us free. We're young & this isn't how it's supposed to be. I cannot tell you exactly how growing up is supposed to be but I don't want to spend it in pain from you. I don't want this drama & so I've walked away. When you walked away from me I let you leave, I moved on. Show me you really do love me and do the same... for us. Because that's what gave me the strength to let you go on that night.

The clock still ticks & time hasn't ended.

Our love hasn't either...

But we have.