Independence

I strongly need this in my life, all of us do, so therefore this is a great time to take that step because I think I have hit one of the last reminders to do so, I am long over due to take this step... whether it be the simple little things like do the dishes, finally learning how to cook! to striving to succeed the bigger things on my very own...

All my life I have had the people I care about pretty much there for me all the time, and I have taken that all for granted. I am after all only human. Independence has finally smacked real hard into my head today & I want thing's to change & I know I have to take this step in order to make things right & fair.

My senior years are coming up and I need to step up and actually try. I have a position of being someone's girlfriend to withhold. Again. And of course, I have growing up. My mum is the greatest woman I will ever meet, and I hope you all would say the same for your own mum :) She has unconditionally loved me since day one whether she wanted to or not and she has always always always done everything for me (friends&boy, you know this more than anyone! haha) and I have taken my mothers love for granted and have always let her do anything and everything for me, I know that's horrible but it is the way I have been brought up and because I haven't slowly undertaken little tasks on my own. I am forced to take one big leap.

This Year I hope to become more independent, I've always told people this but now It's about time I step up and accept that fact myself. (shh I'm not a bad advice giver okay!) Independence is one of the many keys to life, we need to endure a lot of things by ourselves in order to learn. In life, there is only one and only one person who will be there for us from the very start all the way to your very last breath of air. And that's yourself. There will be so many people in your life who will be in your life and then just sometimes gracefully and sometimes not so gracefully walk right on out, sometimes not on their own will. But it always happens.

So I want to be independent before someone actually really leaves me for good, and it hits me smack bang in the face way too hard. After all, I do love Peter Doan and I thought his first leave was painful... Creating a blog, taking up sewing, and many other things have helped me take my mind of these things in life & It's now, helped me see the independence side, what I am able to achieve on my own. I will analyse what I went through last year and will hope to take an even bigger step. Soon :)