trying not to think about it got me missng you more

So far, 2009 is one of the worst years of my life.
I'm learning, growing a heck of a lot stronger.
But I'm also losing. Falling down to often. And getting tired of picking myself up even though i know I'll fall down soon.
It all crashed too soon. i feel as though im back to square one with a situation i thought was over.
It was only easier for me to move on because i knew you had too. Now i know. I cant let you go.
I don't think i can be honestly happy anymore.
I'm afraid of the future again, not sure whats going to happen.
All i know is that I'll be around. I'll wait and see if you reply.

p.s. i love you.
these wintry nights remind me of us. when you would text me and sook about the weather & not being able to sleep. what we had. what we were. what we could still be...

Finally had the time of my life. Finally had someone new to share it with (:
Ive had the most awesome weekend ever since... from what i can remember, my birthday? which was last year at the end of December :L So here is my long weekend. Friday was town with the ladies, served Mary & I's tradition. "Every time we're together, we eat ice cream everyday we are with each other" Mary&Raya went for coffee with adelaide-ians and i found some of the old crew to chill with.
Slept at 5
Saturday Went to Aunties, Young ones went shopping at westlakes. Had dinner at the Watermark in Glenelg with the ladies & family. Went for a walk down the beach. Town again for ice cream! Left my phone at my Aunties - Had to go back to get it LOL G____________G Called up Hien so we could hang out like planned - Pretty much ran to hindley maccas to meet up with him :L Chilled at the hotel with 'young gentlemen', Raya, Mary & Chris Raya. Hien&I went of and had icecreeaaaammm - i got soaked walking down Rundle street (:
The ladies&Chris went clubbing. Hien&I tried to explore the hotel but i just ended up locking us on the fith floor LOL - The ladies & Chris came back up The ladies & Chris came back at 3ish?
Slept at 5 or 6? Sunday Went to McLarren Vale with family (:
'Young gentlemen' and us ladies went windy point that night, went back to the hotel after and the ladies crashed at 10:30.
Slept at ... sometime late once again. i forgot (:
Monday had breakfast with the ladies and 'Young gentlemen', dropped him home & pretty much slept in the car for the rest of the day while everyone else was doing who knows :L
Dropped the ladies of at the airport at 5:30, drove home and i was still sleeping in the car.
And now im home. on my beloved computer. Talking on msn and writing in my blog when i should be doing homework.
correction, the stack essays&assignments.

Hope everyone had a wonderful long weekend.
xx